Nevers Road

Yeah
 I think about it quite often, I wonder if you can hear me
 Sometimes I pick up on signs that you sent to show that you're near me
 Sometimes I think about life after death and question the theories
 I miss your smile and your voice, I still remember it clearly
 I wrote a song called last letter, I put the volume on max
 I wonder if you look down on my life and get a good laugh
 And then tell Grandma and the others that you're proud you're my dad
 I wish I'd cherished every single fuckin' moment we had
 Now it's too late
 So many things I wish I said, just never had time to say
 How can you feel so close from a million miles away
 It's crazy what can change in a year, a month or a day
 I know I'm flawed and so perfect is somethin' I never claim
 They say, the strongest storms show the strongest roots
 I always knew that one lie could change a hundred truths
 I always cherished when you told me, I believe in you
 I hope that you can forgive me for how I treated you
 Thinkin' back, I blamed you for all of my fuckin' demons
 You drank another bottle, could never fathom the reasons
 It took too long to get you the help that you really needed
 One day when I win a Grammy, I hold it up, so you see it
 I promise, I know you know I'm a man of my word
 Lately feelin' less and less adapted to handling hurt
 Actin' like they know my fuckin' life 'cause they're fans of my work
 Others are nice to get what they want 'cause they're fans of my worth
 Can't tell the real from the fake, can't tell the fake from the real
 Broken and empty inside, told me in time I would heal
 OCD wreckin' my brain, I don't want nothin' the same
 Dropped the whole album at once, write it all over again
 Write it all over again, write it all over again
 Feel like I'm goin' insane, want to feel good for a change
 I keep ignorin' the pain, there is nobody to blame
 Tell me they love me for me, then they throw dirt on my name, yeah
 The darkest nights make the brightest stars
 I tell myself that every time I feel like life gets hard
 We've come a long fuckin' way since our kindest regards
 And still I feel like my whole life is just waitin' to start
 I could've lost it all in that crash, the lights flash
 It's feelin' like something's jabbed in my back
 The car's spinnin', my whole body's cut and covered in glass
 And when we stop, I see my stomach slowly turnin' to black
 That made me realize my whole life is truly fragile at best
 Sometimes I stress until I physically feel pain in my chest
 I ruminate, that's like my mind is always stuck on reset
 I heard my grandma's fightin' cancer, Mom just sent me a text
 I know we always butted heads and never saw eye to eye
 But at this rate, I've seen too many in my family die
 Apologize for holding grudges, such a waste of my time
 So I just wanna say I love you while you're here and alive
 Some people don't know the difference of being human and human-being
 I'm only lettin' things inside my life, now they give it meaning
 I'm only lettin' things inside my mind, now they keep me dreaming
 I'm only lettin' things inside my heart, now they keep it beating
 That's real
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 Yeah
 Dan told me, jump on this beat and let it all spill
 I wonder if I lost it all if they would call still
 Some people tend to forget, but I know we all feel
 I put my soul on display and that's what they call real
 Stop holdin' on, if it's holding you back, then let it go
 Your grass will always be the greenest if you let it grow
 They said I'll never be anything, guess you never know
 No matter how far we'd go, we started at Nevers Road
 Nevers Road