Oxygin

I know I need to learn to live with all the things I can't change
 I hate the fact that I feel nothing or I'm reeling in pain
 I need to shake this fucking habit, so I try, but I can't
 And I look down on other addicts when we're one and the same
 Remember back, I'm pushin' twenty, those were simpler times
 That's when we met, and ever since you're never far from my mind
 I broke my ankle playin' ball, and so it's you I'm prescribed
 And even through all of the pain, you make me feel I could fly
 A couple weeks, and now you're gone and now I'm feelin' the stress
 I always wanted to feel something, maybe nothing is best
 My friends and family start to question if I'm feelin' depressed
 But I don't really give a damn, just put me back on the meds
 I've been lost in my head
 My homie Jack said he dealt with the same shit
 He said he started drinkin' to deal with the pain quick
 All you need is a fifth and it's cool to remain lit
 So he handed me a bottle, said, "Take about eight sips"
 I'm faded, but I wanna feel straight numb
 So I drink the rest of the bottle, liquor burnin' my gums
 Woke up the next day at around a quarter to one
 My peers would say that "Man I had fun, right?"
 I've been lyin', I've been sayin' I'm fine
 But I've been feeling low and I don't know why
 Another night, I feel empty inside
 Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find
 Feel the weight lift off me
 Someone tell my mom I'm sorry
 I don't wanna lie, I've been losin' my mind
 They tell me "Take a pill" until I feel alright
 The present day been feelin' sick, think I'm just bidin' my time
 I take a shot of somethin' strong to keep that shit off my mind
 All my friends started families and they left you behind
 And here I am drinkin' any can or bottle I find
 My body took you in as blood and so we're never apart
 Some real shit, you the closest someone's been to my heart
 But just like everything I love, you fuckin' tear me apart
 Just like everything I love, you fuckin' tear me apart
 I wanna be there for my son, daughter, wife—I mean my ex-wife now
 I guess that time really flies when you're drunk on the couch
 I wanna shake this fuckin' habit, I just don't know how
 So you would love to see me sick until I almost drown
 And so you keep me on the brink of barely livin' and death
 As long as I'm alive, yeah, you know you're gettin' my cheque
 You pray my son and daughter will follow me in my steps
 You'll create our loves a fact that I'm broke and broken and in debt
 Can go a day without food, I can't go a day without you
 When I try, I get the shakes 'til my face turns blue
 Lost my job, wife, life for a bottle of booze
 You promised you would make me happy, we know that's not true
 I tried every drug in the book, but they never hit me the same
 I told my doc that I'm down, he put some pills in my name
 It doesn't matter the problem, the fix is always the same
 Always takin' the easy route, like I'm never willin' to change, damn
 Now blamin' everybody but me
 With you inside my system, everybody used to love me
 But now my friends, family, my kids, they can't even trust me
 Been losin' all my control and I let you fuckin' become me
 No more! I said no fuckin' more!
 I know you think I'm lyin', I said this to you before
 This time I'm fuckin' ready, it's time to show you the door
 This life is mine, it never was yours!
 I've been lyin', I've been sayin' I'm fine
 But I've been feelin' low and I don't know why
 Another night, I feel empty inside
 Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find
 Feel the weight lift off me
 Someone tell my mom I'm sorry
 I don't wanna lie, I've been losin' my mind
 They tell me "Take a pill" until I feel alright