Back Then

I've been trying harder to walk straight
 And stay away from the deep thoughts for both our sakes
 All that's left is nothing left to say
 Because this hit me like a
 Tidal wave
 There's not a chance in hell I'd make the same mistakes
 You couldn't grit your teeth just for another day
 You left me here alone
 I was so young and afraid
 Young and afraid
 Yeah, I tried writing letters to myself
 To get my darkest fears on surfaces less fragile than my chest
 I wish the best but I'll admit
 I lay awake in wonder
 If you could read them now
 What would you say?
 Say to me
 There's not a chance in hell I'd make the same mistakes
 You couldn't grit your teeth just for another day
 You left me here alone
 I was so young and afraid
 Young and afraid
 Patiently at the end of the rope I barely know
 When life was split between the days that I can't sleep
 At times it seems that's all I need
 Well did you ever listen?
 If you could hear me now
 I'd tell you
 Stay away
 I gave up a past that lead me to my own disease
 It won't rip us apart like the
 Tidal wave
 There's not a chance in hell I'd make the same mistakes
 You couldn't grit your teeth just for another day
 You left me here alone
 I was so young and afraid
 Young and afraid