Blue Mind

I can't tell if I'm cursed
 Or just blessed beyond measure
 If pain equals pleasure
 Then why are my insides on fire
 Isn't that what you wanted
 My knees always weak
 But my foot taps a hole through the floor
 Waking up in that cold sweat
 A dream about drowning
 Beautiful and horrific
 It stings
 There's new pain in my throat when I sing
 And the lines in my face always change
 Save the rest for tomorrow
 If it comes we'll burn that bridge down
 One is somebody with nothing
 Two are the weeks that remain
 Three voices crowding my conscience
 Enough to acknowledge
 The difference between you and I
 When my hands became calloused
 Although I can't stand it
 We were so happy
 That we could have died
 Stare deep at the blue wall
 If you can hear waves crash
 We no longer have any time left
 Panic nausea
 The difference between you and I
 Falling out now
 So happy that we could have died
 Yet another rift is growing
 Tell me why I've stood my ground
 As the Earth rips wide open
 I'm finally looking down
 I don't think I'd make the jump
 No light is seen from that smile now
 Let the water take my body right back to the sea
 See how they can barely notice you
 It's always so strange when I can't seem to
 Stop focusing on the sound of my heartbeat
 I can't take much more
 The colors bend and break me
 The waves just pound against me
 So why the fuck does my brain take me there
 Take me there