Why?

I wanna write out my feelings but idk what to say
 Cause rly it's nothing more than I'm having a shitty day
 I wanna put it in words and trust me I'm trying
 But before I can get it out I just end up crying
 I know what to say when I'm asked how I feel
 But when I'm asked why, no answer feels real
 I can't squeal, can't make a structure using Peel
 I know how I feel but I don't know why
 Which makes every day just not feel right
 It's not as bad as her, cry chocolate for the hurt
 No breakup to boast, or issues to roast
 But I feel, and I can't heal
 Why?
 Why do I feel
 Why do I feel like nothings real
 How do I heal
 Why?
 I can't mend a relationship, or take a vacation, shit
 I'm stuck in this cycle, and the only thing I know, is surviving is vital
 I can't get out, if i wanted to
 Only way to escape, is through an escape route
 Cause i'm on auto pilot
 And there's no button to fly it
 Keep, keeping on
 'Til everythings gone
 And your empty shell
 Unlocks the spell
 I'm lost in a maze with no escape
 And no idea how i got in the place
 I'm like flowers in a vase
 Taken from the base
 With only water
 Helping the slaughter
 Looking pretty in a case
 But just in case i can get better
 Lord, keep making me wetter
 Why?
 Why do I feel
 Why do I feel like nothings real
 How do I heal
 Why?