left behind.

No love in me, I can't give love to you, I'm sorry I cannot
 I'm made to be the way I am so being happy I cannot
 Or maybe I'm not sad at all, and I'm just really fucked up
 Either way it goes I'll live my life till death with no love
 Left behind, I'm left to find increase in my high hopes to die
 Left of right, but both roads lead me to a rope to tie
 Given up, no more to fight for, I'll just sit and sigh
 In my room, no sun in my pores, I'll just stay inside
 Living in my head, I'm the only one that hurts me
 I'm the thing I hate, I'm the one who truly cursed me
 I wish I could change, I wish I could find some more peace
 The only drive I have, is my body in a hearse
 Deep 6 feet, fix me, I know you don't miss me
 But I can still taste your cherry lips when you kissed me
 It rips me apart, tear the veins from my heart
 I know still have one, but it's not working like before
 A waste of space is what I am, I'm losing touch of what I was
 Nobody wants to be with me, from simple friends to every girl
 It hurts to hear my thoughts aloud
 Cause then I can't just block 'em out
 So I resort to drugs when I'm awake in hopes they knock me out
 I'm fucking sick of waking up in knowledge that I fucked up
 Knowledge that I gotta face every thing I've had enough of
 Enough of my life that's a lie, don't wanna talk, I'll tell you why
 Cause every time I open up it leaves a fucking knife in my
 Back that's already breaking down from the weight I hold
 I'm so full of hate I don't think there is a way to love
 Pressure pushing back, I'm losing hope, why should I even shove?
 Sick thoughts, a match box, is what I am becoming of
 I suffer everyday, I might just throw it all away
 I might snap off at anyone that enters in my space
 Take the cap off, or light up, I wanna intoxicate
 This fucking body that's stuck in a place that's not great
 I'm too far deep
 Can't get enough sleep
 Fuck this 9-5
 This way of life just crush me