In My Head

Tell me why
 I still got you on my mind
 Day and night I need a reason
 To forget
 And to live without regret
 It's still in my head
 It's not that easy
 February 2019
 I remember that time
 'Cause that's when I met you
 Tell me, how could I forget you
 If you changed my whole life
 Yes, you made it all right
 And you stuck by my side
 Despite all the drama
 Despite all the karma
 That seemed to be coming my way
 And despite all the negative things that people wanted to say
 When you chose me as the man that you wanted to date
 When you met me all I had was the hate
 Deep inside me burning
 I was at a stage of learning
 But deep inside me yearning
 For a little bit of love
 I guess I needed a hug
 I guess I needed your love
 And that's what you gave me
 Forgave me
 When I fucked up
 You truly brought me back to life
 And I'm not shamed so say it
 On the contrary
 I'm sorry
 If you feel like I didn't do enough
 When all you did was give me your love
 Tell me why
 I still got you on my mind
 Day and night
 I need a reason
 To forget
 And to live without regret
 It's still in my head
 It's not that easy
 I was raised rough
 I said, I was raised tough
 But that should never be a reason to push away love
 Yet that's exactly what I did
 You see, I come from a motto that is known as fuck a bitch
 And that's how I lived
 Until you walked into my life
 And then you showed me how to fight
 And not with other people
 But with the demons in my mind
 Do you remember that night?
 When we hopped inside my ride
 And we took that long drive
 After that, I could never be the same
 It represents the damned seed
 Of how for me it all changed
 And you are the one to blame
 Or rather, you are the one to thank
 For making my heart sink
 And making my mind think
 'Cause that's exactly what I needed
 Repeat it
 And heed it
 Bleed it
 And feed it
 'Cause now I see it
 I promised you my life
 And in return you offered me a wife
 Yet here we are separately
 And I sit here desperately
 Trying to explain
 Tell me why
 I still got you on my mind
 Day and night
 I need a reason
 To forget
 And to live without regret
 It's still in my head
 It's not that easy
 I wish you could see
 The smile on the faces of peeps
 When they found that it was over between us
 It's like they prayed for the day
 And despite the tribulation
 That's just more confirmation
 They were jealous of the magic between us
 It was easy to tell every time that they seen us
 Fucking people couldn't stand to bare the site
 Of a smile on my face and a woman by my side
 But that's not why I write
 I write you 'cause I miss every little thing about you
 And I'm truly lost without you
 But don't worry I don't live with regrets
 On the contrary
 I truly feel blessed
 And the reason for this letter
 Is to express myself better
 When I start to explain
 How my life was much better
 When you were all up in it
 And you gave me every minute
 Of all the extra time you had
 Amor, how could I forget you
 Even if I could
 I don't ever wanna try
 Even if it hurts
 I love you lingering in my mind
 And it happens all the time
 And I smile when it gets me
 I will never forget you
 So please don't forget me
 Tell me why
 I still got you on my mind
 Day and night
 I need a reason
 To forget
 And to live without regret
 It's still in my head
 It's not that easy