shooting stars

I never learned to love myself
 The only thing I ever learned, was how to numb myself
 The age of 15, that's when I took the drugs to help
 'Cause, I would rather feel anything, than feel what I felt
 'Cause as a kid, I dealt with betrayal and trauma
 Got sick of dealin' with drama
 I took the drugs to feel calmer
 'Til getting fucked up was normal
 Used liquor and marijuana, to cope
 I got addicted to hope
 I'm at the edge of my cliff
 Now, I've gotta let go
 I pray to stars in the sky
 All of the time
 I know that I'll be okay
 As long as I pray, on a shooting star
 I pray to stars in the sky
 All of the time
 I know that I'll be okay
 As long as I pray, on a shooting star
 The only thing I've ever really had in my life, is my music
 From ages 8 to 12, I dealt with a lot of abuse
 And shit that I would rather not talk about, at the moment
 It took me a while, to admit to my past and own it
 But it made me who I am today
 I used to be a lost soul, that was led astray
 I was not okay
 So, I laid on my bed, and prayed to stars in the sky
 That I could survive this pain, that I would harbor inside
 To shooting stars
 I pray to stars in the sky
 All of the time
 I know that I'll be okay
 As long as I pray, on a shooting star
 I pray to stars in the sky
 All of the time
 I know that I'll be okay
 As long as I pray, on a shooting star
 I know life ain't what you hoped
 But that's okay
 That just means you've gotta grow
 You've got a long way to go
 I feel so lost in the dark
 It's all in my head
 That just means I've gotta grow
 I've got a long way to go
 I pray on a shooting star!
 I pray on a shooting star!
 'Cause, lately I'm going numb
 Lately, I'm going numb
 I pray on a shooting star!
 I pray on a shooting star!
 'Cause, lately I'm going numb
 Lately, I'm going numb
 I know life ain't what you hoped
 But, that's okay
 That just means you've gotta grow
 You've got a long way to go